I went to the Antique Mall in town today. I had never been before because you mostly find junk and if you're lucky you'll find something good. Well, I was lucky I found some really good things today. I found 2 Chinese Necklaces from the 1800's With the paper of Authentication. sadly, it's 500$ for the set o.0 ....a little too much....worth it but much....I can dream.
The other thing I found was an old violin. Poor thing, I found it with it's original case and bow it was just laying in a corner. Most of drawstring on the bow is missing and a few strings on the violin are broken. the case is old and a little ragged but it's still good I think. It just needs some repair, but i ran what little of the drawstring was still on the bow and the violin still has a rich full sound it's not out of tune at all. For a second, I could have sworn I got a feeling of happiness when I held it. I've never been around an object with feeling. I've heard of it. It seemed so lonely in that corner, I felt sad for it. I had to pick it up. LoL I surprised my mom, she didn't know that I knew how to handle a violin. It's 80$. I think I'll go back for it if I get a good paycheck next week. Tell me what you guys think? Should I get it? Would it be worth it to buy it?
I GOT A JOB!!!!!! Not really sure how my luck changed from metric crap tastic to great But no complaints from me!!!! My abilities and gifts as of late have become really strong too. I can't remember the last time fortune smiled upon me like this or being this happy! There's no doubt in my mind I got help from everyone, Thank you very much!
This must be a new record for me. two blog posts in one morning. I'm awake and can't sleep my asthma is bothering me. but that's not what i'm writting about. I sense a change and I hear voices calling me in the wind. I have always seen spirits and they have always seen me. I walk a fine line between our world and the spirit world. I have been in the spirit world many times and I know my place in it. Spirits are normal company for me as I am for them. This morning is different though. I don't know why but spirit activity has increased 10 fold. I don't know why so many spirits are going out of their way to make themselves known. Their voices call my name and carry on the wind. I sit in my room and even now I see the shadow of someone walking the empty hall through the tiny crack under my door. they pause for moment, they know I'm watching through a closed door then they continue to drift through out the house as they please. I suppose a wiser one would be fearfull but I am intriuged. I wonder have I called to them somehow and not realized. I'm usually more carefull than that. I've already dismissed a few bad spirits from my home. I've blessed my home and I have asked my Spirit Companions to stand guard. I look out my window and see a crowd of spirits outside my home a mix of good, neutral, and bad. They wish to get closer but, my Companions drive them away. I know it is my fate as it is the fate of the Shamans in my family who have come before me that one day I will cross the veil to spirit world and never return. Yet I wonder still, what do so many want of me?
Side Note - I don't know how it happened...I just posted this a few moments ago at 03:49 AM I glanced over at chin chin to see what he was up too and saw him sleeping in another funny way. so I grabbed my cell and turned on the camera to take a photo but I heard a bang like someone dropped something like a book. so I look over at the crack at the base of my door and I see the shadow again but this time it's right in front of my door trying to get in by slipping through the crack. My closest spirit companion and guide Fenrir, left my side and jumped off my bed and took care of it. But when I glanced down at the clock again I saw the time was 4:52! Somehow I've ended up with lost time. The song I was listening to on my main page Hotel California was still playing uninterrupted. How can this be?
I just uploaded a pic of chin chin here's a little background info On the second level of his home there is a hole for a supper dish that came with it. But chin chin never liked the bowl so I took it out and low and behold the hole is also chin chin size! He fits through it with ease! he uses it like a secret passage way. lol and just last night I caught him sleeping like that with his head in the hole! It was so hard not to bust out laughing as I took the pic so he wouldn't wake up. I also put up a pic of me. I hate photos of myself, I don't think I'm very photogenic. In this shot you can't tell but my eyes are gold. Tell me what you think!
Side note - My pic is for friends only.
Sorry everyone but I only take off the mask for my friends
I don't really know why I'm putting this as a blog, it's just for some reason I feel I should. It's not like it's going to help anything.
I need a job....a full time job badly...I've been looking for weeks now and nothing...I've applied to multiple places. I go in for interviews and they tell me I qualify for the job then I never hear from them. there are a few places in town I need to apply for in person I'll be going out to do that tomorrow. Most of you are going to say well getting a job isn't hard or that it's end of the world. It wouldn't be for me either but for one thing. I have no work experience. That's right! I've never had a job! I've never worked a day in my life! My parents told me not to worry over such a trivial thing and focus on my education and my "talent". So I could go to art college. The one time I listened to my parents ended up royaly screwing me....
If I can't get a job I don't know what I'm going to do...My student loans are rapidly comeing up and I've no job to pay them. The last thing I want to do is default on my student loans. If that happens I can never go back to college.
I was forced to quit college, I only had 1 year left. I needed a co-signer for student loans so I could go to school. My brother became too ill and lost his job he could no longer co-sign for me. So my father decided that he would. He was my co-signer for a month. Then he sent the loans back. He didn't even have a valid reason, The only reason why he canclled my loans was that he didn't want to do it anymore. What a child! So I was told by my school, unless I find another co-signer I can't return to school. The problem is I have no one else. I have to get a job so I can pay these loans back. Maybe one day I can go back to college. But it looks like that's going to be 10 years from now and who knows what might be going on in my life by then. The void that spans who I was planning to be and what I'm forced to be, is becoming more difficult to bridge by the day. and my hope, my dream, it's all fadeing away...all this time wasted and nothing to show for it.....It seems that all I'll be left with is my pride...but...I'm begining to lose that too...
Again, I have no idea what this was supposed to accomplish, I hate sob stories especially mine, I apologize in advance for this waste of space. My next blog will have a purpose, and it won't waste everyone's time like this one is ultimately going to.
