@.@ Ohaiyo.... (Japanese casual good morning. -direct translation - morning)

I've pulled an all nighter ...bleh.. o.0

The reason I'm up, is because I had a flea infestation in my room. poor chinchin, i'm so glad his fur is too dense for fleas to get to his skin so they can breed. but, they didn't get that memo; so they try anyway and he scratches. He's scratched so much he's just barely broke the skin on a place on his neck. and you know how it is. If there's white and it gets a spot on it, it's visible from space.

I was so worried, cuz he hurt himself and i was like OH, CRAP do i need to take him to vet? i dunno!

I've been checking on him throughout the night and he's doing just fine :3 the bad spot is healing nicely with no added redness, so no infection. :3 and he saw how bad I felt, every time I saw his beautiful coat of snow dyed crimson. So he cleaned it :3 and now he looks normal and he let me rub his head, and he gave me a kitty kiss! :3 (nose to nose) That made me feel so much better :3

So, I've been up all night washing every thing I own 0.o lol. I naturally took chinchin out of the room and treated the area, all fleas terminated mission cleared. X3  I vented the room out properly.  so he's now back in his cage :3 Sadly, I got to go out later and buy him a new bag of hay and new chew sticks. I accidently bumped my bookshelf and both fell right in front of the line fire lol and they got flea killer on them. *sigh* Well, on the bright note at least a bag of hay is only $2 and the chew sticks I bought him were only $4 so under $10 at least I didn't get any of the spray on his pellet food which ranges from $11 - $14 on top of his hay and chews, that would have sucked. - -; 

Well I'll stop rambling, My pillows are in the wash atm, and I still have to wash the clothes I'm wearing, and my blanket. so, I still have a while to go. lol I'm at the halfway point :3

To everyone who left a comment on my last post thank you very much. Your words were all very kind and lifted my spirits. I have been so upset from what happend I had just locked myself up in my room, and wouldn't come out I wouldn't even look at myself in the mirror. I just felt so ashamed of myself, like I had done some unforgivable act. I just laid in my bed, if the mood struck me I would sit up and draw a little. but that's all I did no, lights, tv, nothing. when it dark I went back to sleep if I wasn't already. Then, today I felt like checking covenspace to see if anyone left a comment and many did. I read them all and I felt so much better! just yesterday I was called and asked to come into another interview on monday. Perhaps, this interview will go better than the last. Again thak you all very much :3

                                                 -May the moon watch over you always

I went for a job interview yesterday afternoon, I applied for a Sales position at Jenny Craig and I was contaced the day I applied and asked to come in for an interview the following day. So I did. I was really pleased, it seemed like I had finally found a job where I could be a valuable asset as an employee. Who better to help motivate people than someone like me?! I'm severly overweight I'm aware of this. But surely you'd want to have someone there you can relate too? Think, I could have really promoted the company at least the center in my area, Come lose weight with me, and have me lose weight along with my customers. So I go in for the interview and the Director takes me to her office, and the interview starts well enough, then she asks me why do I think I'd be valuable as an employee? well I tell here what I've already stated above. and then she tells me that, she disagrees, that she thinks if I were hired that I would cause the center to lose buisness because people would come in, see me, then become offended and or leave thinking that "well this program dosen't work look at who they hired." Because I'm fat!!!  What The ****?! It took all my strength not to jump up and knock that little ho unconcious! If that wasn't bad enough then she looked at me and asked what do I know of Jenny Craig, If anything at all?  ummmm...what type of idiot dose she take me for? with all the ccelebrity endorsement even a 80 yr old shut in knows about Jenny Craig. I have close realatives that are on the program and even go to the very center I was interviewed at.  So I know first hand about the program and that it works. Then the little bitch realized that she's blatenly offended me ...no shit right?...  She then tells me how 6 - 8 months ago this size 2, 90 pound chick lost "65 pounds"  Bull Shit, This woman's frame is so small that if she were 65 pounds over weight you would be able to see the tell tale signs like gee, i don't know,  Stretch marks under that super short sleeved nearly no sleeves baby t-shirt. And if she truly had ever been over weight like that she would have never said that to me. with all the emotional abuse we put our selves through and our near non exsistent low self esteeme. no, obese current or otherwise whould ever say that to another person.  The most this chick could have ever been overweight would the 5 pounds she gained on her last period but, lost it after she threw up. At that the interview was over, I stood up and left

When I got home, I wasted no time in calling the 1800 number to log a formal complaint, The gentleman I spoke to was outraged by what I told him and profusely apologized to me I could hear his genuine disgust as he typed the report that he was to send to his boss and the corporate office. However, it's his job, he told me the Jenny Craig policy, "All Jenny Craig Employees must model the image of a healthy lifestyle" Basically they only hire size 2 or less.

I've been trying to get a job since January. There have been multiple jobs that I'm qualified for, That I am a "desireable applicant" for hire. Then, after the phone interview I show up to the on site interview, My persona and answers don't change I'm still the same person they spoke to. But, after that I never hear another word. Then, months even weeks later, I see the same job has been relisted and they are still seeking employees. If they had openings and if I was so "desireable and qualified" why didn't I get hired? Yesterday's issue has got me reflecting on this. Is it because I'm fat and not society's view of beauty? Is it really something so shallow as that? why I still don't have a job?  My common sense is riging in my skull No, this can't be. but, I have yet to be proven wrong. 

As promised here is another Pic of Chin chin he's eating a rasin :3 it's cute the way he holds stuff with his little hands. I was lucky to get a pic of him without him moving at the second and making the pic fuzzy. lol at the moment he's asleep on his ledge. I got to get him a new one.

lol I need to shopping for him in general. he needs stuff to chew on, hay, dust (that's how they bathe), pellet food, lots of stuff

Well, I just got my buisness website up and running so if anyone wants to take a look here is the web address.

http://www.asihealthcare.com/website/272498/